Need a break

I guess its time for a break. break not for taking some rest, but to let the world know that I need to grow.

A break to prove that whatever I am destined to do, I have achieved it.

A break to bring a breakthrough.

Whatever Naradmuni did, Gyaani-baba is aware that I am pissed off. But the problem is he is self-centered. Not once anyone has asked me how can they help me except the Cadbury gem himself and the hell's warth himself. Hell's warth is the most heavenly person i have met. We converse so well and are aligned so well. That's the effort he is taking, not me - i can sense it.

but what the hell... I have things to achieve and do for the folks globally and that's my objective.

i will successful only if I am able to write the research paper, complete the ops excellence assignment and complete the program partially successfully.

and what troubles me when I am about to sleep is... what next. what after all this is over?

I definitely need a family - someone who can take my stuff with them and make this world a better place.

use my pens as a vintage item. 

read my books as treasures.

use my home as theirs.

keep my stuff as memories long after I am gone.

what does it mean to be gone?

nothing would matter after that?

what will happen to my stuff?

my body no longer ceasing to exist... what will happen of me?

honestly, I am not ready to go until i have been used for the human race's advantage.

FYI - my body cant digest bread. i get acne. carbs give me acne - do not work well with my body.

bread, sugar.. anything with carbs, gives acne - here 2 bumps on my chin.

glucose is poison to my body.

what works is - no meat, no carbs, nothing artificial.

diary seems okay, veggies and fruits seem okay. eggs seem okay... in fact cheese seems okay!!

FYI 2 - have to get our OKR for the team. I love this work...and fun fact - this work is not mine. i have always loved this position of responsibility. But this team and the people here, they are not meant for great things. they are meant for "just things" and are wiling their time away. I working with them reduces my potential to aim for great things, reduces my sights to bigger things.

That's why I need this break - a break to get things right. to straightened things.

A break to sort out my life's priorities!