Thoughts of the Worm

He says she craves for direct attention. And if she continues he will may leave her forever. This was all she needed from him to let him go. All she had craved was a little attention from the person she liked and was the most comfortable with. She was never reciprocated with the love she offered. And now all this was turning her into someone who was 'okay' with the 'temporary' things in life. Maybe thats what she has to learn in this life. Nothing is permanent - not friends, not family, no one around her. There is only one thing that will stay with her forever - memories. Maybe the goal is to live in the present. Love the people she meets as much as she could - realize that these moments will never return... Not everyone will like her and its okay. Maybe she is the good thing that needs to happen to others - and thats why, to begin with, she was born to a couple who craved for a child for 10 long years. Maybe thats why she completed her studies without any additional ex...

Its happening again :) running away from the most important person for  me. I now doubt if that person who i think of as the most important.. actually is. Maybe its God's way of saying - nothing is important or permanent. Maybe i am learning in this birth. How am i suppose to value relations if all i got till date is rejection from people i consider as important. Maybe... just maybe.. they have gone away because i pushed them away. Maybe.. i think the best way to avoid all the emotions is to be unattached and run as soon as i sense a threat.  A threatening situation that makes me vulnerable and shows me as one to the world. I still fail to understand what scares me if I show how vulnerable i can become for few people.... how easily can i begin to trust and assume that nothing bad will happen! I cannot change myself anymore - but i will try different ways to learn. I will keep my ego aside. Come what may - i want to learn what is it that i have been avoiding. I will be happy al...