again

Its happening again :) running away from the most important person for  me. I now doubt if that person who i think of as the most important.. actually is. Maybe its God's way of saying - nothing is important or permanent. Maybe i am learning in this birth. How am i suppose to value relations if all i got till date is rejection from people i consider as important. Maybe... just maybe.. they have gone away because i pushed them away. Maybe.. i think the best way to avoid all the emotions is to be unattached and run as soon as i sense a threat.  A threatening situation that makes me vulnerable and shows me as one to the world. I still fail to understand what scares me if I show how vulnerable i can become for few people.... how easily can i begin to trust and assume that nothing bad will happen!

I cannot change myself anymore - but i will try different ways to learn.

I will keep my ego aside. Come what may - i want to learn what is it that i have been avoiding.

I will be happy alone... and i wont be lonely :)

I will not let my ego rule this time. They will remember me when our paths separate :) and i will be at peace that nothing wrong was done from my end. 

Quite a selfish post- maybe thats what i had to be today :)