Thoughts of the Worm

The reason for my last post, Sometimes Sometime I need to crawl into my shell when my stress hormones have been let out in excess. And then you'll find me in a state which would be something like this... My sleep goes for a toss and I feel like plunging into knowing the wonders of life, how past-present-future occurs and why do living beings turn into dust after death, what happens when we die and why are we born, what is a soul and does it really exist? I feel the urge to know what lies beyond this blue cover over us- the thing that turns black at night when away from the sun- the thing we call 'sky', what exists within the sun, are there something called as 'aliens', what makes us think, what makes us love, who arises this feeling of loneliness in us, why do we cry when we are hurt, what makes me write, what makes me move my fingers on the keypad the way I want to, is red actually red in color or is it the dhoka of eyes, what makes people trust and what makes pe...

..... I just need to hide from the world.

I have heard people saying, 'Forget your Past... Your Future is More Important.' I say, HOW? How can something that is not yet seen be more important than what is happening. How can it be more important than my Present? In fact My Past, My Present and My Future.. All are Mine. All define me and not just my Present. I'm what I am, because of my Past. I will be what I'm suppose to be because of my Present which will be my Past in Future. If I forget that, I'll lose everything- My Present and My Future. My past - good or bad, its Mine. Nothing can take it away from me. Nothing can make me forget it. (except for Aamir's Gajini-Short term memory loss ;)) I can do just two things.. 1. For Good memories : Cherish them 2. For Bad memories : Learn from it and move ahead. I believe, GOD, a supernatural power does exist. People say, "Nature Existed" Ok Agreed. But who made it happen? GOD. What made it happen? GOD. What made GOD happen? Nature. Back to Square One,...