Me is Contradictory cuz Me is Tagged! ;)
Ok this is first time I'm Tagged. And Avi tagged me on such a post that I'd to think not once or twice but .... oh forget it, I've lost the count. So, I've got to put down something that is 'anti-to-each-other' in me.
Initially, it was hard for me to accept that I'm very contradictory. Though I've always had this contradictory feeling about Life, I was never ready to accept it. what feeling about life you ask?
Its the horror of life and the ecstasy of life that go together for me, yet they stand far apart.
When questioned 'hows life going on?' I pause for a moment and wonder, what do I say?
"How is my Life? Is it good? No, it's bad. But no, life has always been good."
A part of my life is great. I love being here. It's fun. Then at the same time, life seems just like another 'going-through-the-hell' journey. While struggling to keep up with others in the race, I literally forgot what it means to be carefree.
No I'm not a sadist. I enjoy my life. I've got people called friends around me. I've been gifted with a wonderful life for which I should be grateful to my parents and to GOD. Whatever I asked for has been granted till date. Life is too good !
see that's when the 'problem' arises. I tend to doublethink.
On the other hand life, at some or the other point of time life has shown me that it's the 'big boss'. I've no control over it whatsoever. what I can do is to wear the disguise of a 'happy-gurl even though I'm not happy at that moment because I was taught 'one should always keep smiling, no matter what'. Now that's exactly what I don't to do. But even after all this, I tend to fall pray to this 'disguise' factor. And at the end of the day, whatever horrifying happens to me is tagged as an 'experience'; something that I should learn from. Bet they are just ways to not let people lose hope.
Finally I accept that I doublethink. I accept that I've the power of holding two contradictory beliefs in my mind simultaneously and also accept them. :)) Now.. well.. should I be happy for that or be sad? :-|
ahh, life for me is a never-ending contradiction.
Time for tagging....
PS: Alok you'r already tagged on this post. Dunt want to risk my life by taggin you again :P
So Omi... I do the honors of passing on the tag to you .. lol
i second ur thought you are definitely not a sadist...
ReplyDelete:D yes ofcourse I'm not a sadist, just like life which looks beautiful when it's actually not and looks horrifying when it is at its best.
ReplyDeletei will do it buddy..
ReplyDeletei mean i will try my best !!!
and we al have these doublethink theory.. atleast i do..
(can u please remove that word verification thingie)
all good...but what was the tag exactly about???I got the funda about the double think tho...
ReplyDeleteScribblers Inc.
After reading this post, I got reminded of "The Stranger" by Albert Camus. Do read this book if you can procure it.
ReplyDeleteAbout the tag, will do soon. :D
:) Nicely done.
ReplyDeleteYou mind if I count you in my cancerian female gang? will soon blog about 'em :)
@Omiiiii,
ReplyDeleteya u better do justice to this tag. :P (no TRYING allowed. Its mandatory. Period)
@Scribblers Inc
Thanks for visiting
This tag is about anything you feel is contradictory in you..
As in for me, its the "feeling bout my Life".. how do I define it, how do I conclude it. And for Avi (the one who tagged me) it was about his sketches in which he excels whereas at the same time and about his handwriting in which he excels too BUT from backwards (lol). Hope you got it :)
TaDa
@Alok,
yo sure. I'll try to lay my hands on that one if at all they dunt get stubborn and lazy ;). And even if they do, I'll pester Omi to get one for me :D
About the tag... you better follow it if you dunt want to lose your guitar! *evil grin*
Hey Sachi,
ReplyDeleteU R A CANCERIAN! :P
huahuauaua so me guessed it right!
Cancerian have good intuition powers hehe
Cancerian Female Gang! Sounds interesting. MEZ IN! :P
bdw, thanks for dropping by :D
oyee har bar thank u bolegi kya? ;)
ReplyDeleteoy ..hum sab bundle of contradictions hain ..one messy bundle ..all neatly packed up
ReplyDeleteblogrolling you
@Sachi
ReplyDeletehaaan haan bolungi Thanxx Sachii :P
@Farah
Thanks for the comments.
yep ya. Bundle of contradictions. Each of us in search of answers from life. :)
Me Adding you too :))