Thoughts of the Worm

I sing to myself With silent words. I talk to myself Under my breath. I play with myself In my mind. And I celebrate myself Every day. In my mind there is a vast prairie, Growing thoughts and words. In my mind there is a vast ocean, Full of songs of sorrow. In my mind there is a vast universe, Of wonder and imagination. In my mind there is a child, A child with powers unknown. This child ..I listen to her, I take her advice and listen. This child ..I talk to her, I make conversation and talk. This child ..I smile at her, I sit next to her and smile. This child ..I relax with her, I lay down beside her and relax.

You are the one my dreams are made of, Full of understanding, warmth and love. These feelings I thought for fairy-tales, But you are the winds that fill my sails. The honesty we share between us two, Keeps this connection very dear and true. We can talk about good times, talk about bad. Talk about the present and the past that we had. You accept me for me, for who I am. My opinions and thoughts you never condemn. There's nothing of me you ask or expect, We have for each other the deepest respect. It's truly amazing how you make my heart smile, And you do it with such a graceful style. Keeping my heart smiling all through the day. And for you, I do thank God, when I pray. You are the warmth of the sun upon my face, You're the calm to survive the rapid rat race. And when you call out my name, I get butterflies, Like a little school girl, with puppy love in her eyes. You can melt all the tension and ease all the pain, Making all refreshed as a cleansing spring rain. And lookin...

I was barely sitting down when I heard a voice from the other stall saying, " Hi How are You? " I am not the type to start a conversation in a lady's restroom, but I don't know what got into me and I answered, "Doing just Fine!" And the other lady says, "What are you upto?" What kind of question is that? At that point I thought, its too bizarre, so I say, "Uh, I am like you, Just traveling!" I was trying to get out as fast as I can, when I hear another question, "Can I come over?" Ok, this question was just too weird for me, but I figured I could be polite and end the conversation. I tell her, "No.. I am a little busy right now!" Then I hear the lady say nervously, "Listen, I will have to call you back. There's an idiot in the other stall who keeps answering all my questions!" (Heehee... sad it wasn't me. I received this piece by email)

Sometimes reading a stranger's thoughts puts us to think... think of the times we've been through as the other person did. Wonderin' am I the only one to have gone through that phase in life? or is there a company? We blame destiny. We blame GOD. There comes a day when we blame ourselves. Something like the following... I break down, I cry, I tend to indulge into self-pity. I spend sleepless nights, I go on a hunger strike. I do all sorts of things to cause PAIN to myself -emotionally n physically. Then days turn into weeks and weeks into months. Even then I am are under the same trauma. WHY? Why do I cause so much pain myself.. so much that I can hardly bear my own existence! Why do I feel, Nobody loves me. ... cares for me. ... understands me. Why do I try to hide my feelings ? ... keep saying, "I love to walk in the rain, because nobody can see me crying"? ... begin to love this quote so much that it is seen scribbled at the last page of my books? ... or as a ...

As usual, while going through my emails and I came across this piece which took me by surprise. Let me remind you, it's not my survey but something that was forwarded to me. So I don't want people following me with Guns and goons! lol Read on... Salary and Government Concessions for a Member Of Parliament (MP) Monthly Salary : 12,000 Expense for Constitution per month : 10,000 Office expenditure per month : 14,000 Traveling concession (Rs. 8 per km) : 48,000 ( eg.For a visit from kerala to Delhi & return: 6000 km) Daily DA TA during parliament meets : 500/day Charge for 1 class (A/C) in train: Free (For any number of times) (All over India ) Charge for Business Class in flights : Free for 40 trips / year (With wife or P.A.) Rent for MP hostel at Delhi : Free Electricity costs at home : Free up to 50,000 units Local phone call charge : Free up to 1 ,70,000 calls. TOTAL expense for a MP [having no qualification] per year : 32,00,000 ( i.e. 2.66 lakh/month) TOTAL expense for 5...

I was going through my mails when I came across this wonderful mail forwarded by one of my friends! It was titled "Know your Value!.. Plzz Read it" I thought it was one of those boring mails. Nevertheless I went through it. I found it to be a pretty good, inspirational e-mail. So just of posting it here.... A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a 500 Rupees note. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like to have this 500 Rupees note?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this note to one of you but first let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the note. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air. "Well," he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now all crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air. Then he said, "My...

How I long to be Free! Free like a Butterfly.. Free from all worries... Free from all barriers... Free from all Biases... Free from all Fake Feelings... Want to be Myself.. I wish to Smile when I am really pleased.. Cry when I am really Sad.. Laugh when I am really happy, Scream when I am really Furious... I don't want to be an actor.. don't want to be another fool who keeps smiling even when hurt. Don't want to please others when I don't to! Don't want to be Friends with others Just because I will be left out... Wish to scream out and say "I love you" to the one I love and make them feel special.. Wish to say "You are really Bad" to the ones who really are... just to get them back to earth... Wish to tell the truth without getting Scared of the consequences! I Just wish to Be Myself!