caught in a maze

This is exactly how i feel today! No.. since yesterday night. Caught in a  maze. Confused.. on one side i see my values staring right into my eyes and piercing through my soul. On another side, i see open mindedness.. well eh not really open mindedness.. but the urge to do what people do - what friends do together - how to socialize - how to start anew! Having being brought up in a very conservative family, i was never exposed to socializing. Had no best friends because parents believed one will end up spending a lot and also the character is messed up drama. I dont blame them entirely because they only to protect me... but the outcome of that was a 'confused me' all my socializing skills were trampled upon and i could never mould them to turn into a better person. That gave birth to two minds - the i-rock-around-people mind and the i-want-to-be-with-myself mind. And my mind swings led to my mood swings. I blame no one, but i want to request all the parents out there  - dont do this to their kids. Being protective is good thing...being overprotective is another. Let kids explore the unknow, let them socialize.. ofcourse in a safe group, let them experiment with their thoughts, let them make mistakes... guide them their way out but dont show you will always be there, make them independent, bring animals at home... teach them to grow with love and shower it to people around.... they dont leave you! They will love you even more for making them the best people they have become :)