The right confusion...

My recent posts have been skeptical about things that matter to me the most. Events taking place these days have been too much for me to handle. Hence I let them out here. Anyway, I recently decided that I should let things handle themselves. You know at times you come across a scenario in life when things go haywire. You don't understand what you are actually suppose to do and you end up taking the most stupid decision ever. You get distracted by the chaos in your mind which in reality is a silence. You wish to break-free from barriers that stop you from achieving something only to realize you are floating in the air with no land beneath. 

The feeling is painkilling... ofcourse not physically but it feels as if you're stabbing yourself and then convincing yourself that this is the RIGHT thing to do. You keep mum, amazed at the silence that greets you and mocks at you. You sit like a dummy HOPING for things to fall in the right track. But things keep changing tracks...finally saturated.. the track breaks. At times, it pays to let go. If something was meant to be yours it'll come back to you and if it doesnt, it was never meant to be yours. So I'm justttttttttttt letting things take control. Either ways, it doesnt matter. It wasnt meant to be!

PS: written in a state of utter confusion and yawnnnnnn .. am sleepy! Good night