Thoughts of the Worm

Touch me - take me to that other place Teach me - I know I'm not a hopeless case It's a beautiful day Don't let it get away It's a beautiful day... :)) --------------------- Happy Diwali to all my Blogger Buddies! :) Enjoy a cracker-less Diwali!!

There are times in life, when you just feel the urge to quit. Quit things that you've been trying for a long time. Quit things that you once adored. Quit the pleasures and the pains... Its wonderful to think about 'quitting', but for while. Reality bites a very very severe bite. Maybe I dont know what exactly I wish to write today. Perhaps I'm confused. Perhaps I'm not. Long back I'd a discrete plan of where I wished to be. How many of us can genuinely say they have achieved what they always dreamt of, without being manipulative. Back in my teens, I wished to be a child specialist, I wished to have a pet, I wished to have a boyfriend, I wished to succeed in everything (yea..King Midas touch). Neither of these happened. I look back now and I don't really regret missing out on any of these. Today, I wish want to achieve to my goals. I don't want to keep options. Neither do I want to be an option. I may sound aggressive, but that is how it is suppose to...

I remember the first time I saw you A little pea sized and cheeks as pink as plums I carried you in my arms and I was on cloud nine. I remember the time I put you to sleep, Had to stay awake whole night telling you the same stories over n over again. Finally you were asleep all wrapped in my arms. I remember the time I had come to see you. I saw you lying on the hospital bed but I showed no emotions I wasn't ready to believe it was you there. I remember our last time together Sitting and talking well into the evening. You wanted to give me a ride on your bicycle. You were almost 11 when you left us. You can never come back I know...but as usual I'm not ready to believe you arent here. It's been a year, but it looks like it was just yesterday that you came and planted a kiss on my cheeks. Just like an innocent child I wish you are back!

I have come across of many "types" of people. Some are timid, some aggressive, some weird and some insane and jealous. Today I wish to emphasize on the last type mentioned. I pity these people. REALLY.... I do. They portray hell lots of sweetness and innocence on the front, but reality is altogether a different picture. They never highlight their own flaws. They're just eager to pick on any little imperfection they see in others and then dig deeper n deeper into it. Shucks... they are simply impossible and I as an imperfect human, dont really feel angry at them, but as I said, I pity them. One advice to all - Stop searching for flaws in others. Look deeper into yourself. Picking on others is one of the biggest flaw that you have. No one is flawless. It may hamper your relationship one day and then probably you'll be left with no one to bank upon. Life is meant to be enjoyed. It's easy to sit at a place and destroy relationships... happens in a blink of an ...

Avi's post on Childhood days, took me to my past where life was filled with the radiance of innocence. I look back and all I see is a girl unaware of the world and its crazy twists flowing at her own pace. So I asked mum, if she remembers me doing any kind of silly things as a kid... and here is the list: 1) When I was something one, I used to nibble at shoes! (pukes). And thanks to this, people were'nt allowed to enter home with shoes. Even the shoe rack was placed outside till I eventually discovered 'shoes' are yuck to be nibbled at. :P 2) My neighbor and I used to throw eggs from his balcony onto the ground! Another person had quoted why dunt we throw it into their hands... atleast they wud have a nice breakfast! :P 3) I hit a guy friend with a brick all beacuse he was getting ready to hit me with a bigger brick and that scared me! I still see that scar on his forehead. ;) 4) I used to lock up everyone in rooms. Bathroom, bedroom, storeroom, kitchen... God damn ever...

Things around you define your stability in life. If you are sad, it shows no matter what facade you wear. If you are happy, then its bliss all around. And right now... I have super-bliss hovering over me, atleast thats what I believe. Touchwood! :D I guess a few here know what its all about! :P At times, we think too low of ourselves when things dont take a turn as per our wish. We gradually underestimate ourselves. When things go bad, just hang on. Your time is on the verge of a new beginning. 'Hanging on' and 'Letting go' - these two can change you life completely - either for good or for bad. When you feel it's time to let go off a few things, let them go, just let them go. If its meant to be yours, it'll come back, but for now its time to let go. I did the same, and when it was back, I felt blessed :) Sometimes you have to 'wait'. This 'wait' could for a certain period- short, long, very long. But never forever. Times during this 'wait...

One of the best things I learned in the past few months is how to rankle people :P 1)  Show no emotional temperament when the person you are talking to wants to express something. Remember... act like you have no Ears! 2) Always have a different view! Always!... even if you agree to the views of the other person.. change your opinions instantly! 3) Make sure the other person agrees to what you say. Bang their head or yell from the chat window... they should agree to you! 4) If you like Amrita Rao and the other person knows it.... disagree immediately! Say you like Kareena! :D *pukes* 5) If someone advises you something... say it on their face that you don't need any advice from them. :P 6) If you know something they don't like... torture them with that! \m/ 7) I know everything, you know nothing! <-- awesome attitude 8)  Laugh like a pest -->  hiiiihhhuuuhaaahiiiiihaaahuuuu 9) Write everything in CAPS. :D 10) Always be Indecisive and Skeptical......