Thoughts of the Worm

And want it to Last Forever... True to myself? I know nothing of True, Real, Passionate Love. I've either loved hopelessly without being loved back, or been loved more than I thought any person could be loved, yet not loved the person back. But then I watch a couple of movies, hear a couple of songs, and go on with the small yet common knowledge of love that has happened in my life which I actually know of.

I sit alone watching them eating their pie the knife covered with remains the perfect slices trigger my taste buds Oh how I wish I had a slice of pie They all laugh and chuckle As they take more bites of the delight Ignoring me as if I'm a ghost to them Dead to the world Damn, I just wanted my slice of pie They didn't give it to me I never did anything to them I just wanted my pie So I took the knife One by one I cut their throats One by one I ate their pie I had the whole pie Bliss hit my veins Happiness flooded my body Sitting there Looking at my blood stained hands I laughed and smiled As I watched them lay there Lifeless.

I am trapped in a prison There are no bars There are no guards There are no inmates There are students There are teachers There are closed doors Its a prison The students are loud Noisy and rowdy The teachers are all too controlling The doors make me feel Trapped inside a prison Help me get out!

I found a new friend... and its not human. Well, neither its an alien... Its a cute little black colored crow. It makes daily visits to my window, feeds on bread crumbs, biscuits, rajama , boondi raita and maggie. It dislikes Idli and rice..We play catch-the- boondi everyday and it wins all the time. I simply love my crowiee. Hope this friendship is meant to last. When all backed out, it was only you who entered my life and showed me my way. GOD really has HIS ways of telling us that HE really Loves us :)

I never thought my life would become a past before my eyes I never thought tears would come before my cries But I now know that truth never lies Trying to hide myself from the world I'm the master of disguise. Nothing much. Tried to sound like I was under exam stress :P

I'm either way to busy or purposely keeping myself preoccupied to stay away from gossips. ugh.. I really hate getting involved in 'girly-gossips'. *bangs head on the wall* Why don't they discuss things like Gadgets... the new amazing Apple IPod Nano or the Nintendo Wii - the superb gaming device with motion sensitive game play and Wifi.... Why do they talk about 'the-girl-on-the-first-bench' or 'the-girl-who-got-married' or 'how-that-girl-bunked-class-to-roam-with-her-boyfriend'? What have I got to do with them?????? See, now you know why I developed goosebumps when I got sndt!?

Is it the whole world or just me who's getting this horrible feeling of being crushed under tests, assignments and... gossips! oh well, has to be only me. Things have become so hectic, the day seems to have less than 24 hours and my fingers seem to have lost the energy and my body seems to have lost the appetite. What am I saying? Aint I sounding like a "seriously-mentally ill-girly-haunted-female"?? Well yes, I am atleast half of the above... 'girly-haunted-female' not 'seriously-mentally ill' :P I hate Maths(Alegbra/Geometry/ and eveyrthing that has this)..... I've never understood why would a student have to mug-up formulaes? Understanding the derivation is fine. But mugging up formulaes? I mean that is weird. Many might not find it weird cuz they are habituated to this mugging things.... I believe people responsible for such a bad situation are teachers. I've observed that when answers are a ditto copy of the books, they are given more marks. B...