Thoughts of the Worm

This feeling is so weird. I was happy until morning when a realization gripped me, that one day, I too will fade away into fine dust. Yes, sudden and weird... I'm scared of death. I can't imagine staying away from the people I love, even for a second, and death will take away everything from me. I keep wondering....how would it feel while breathing my last moment? how would it feel when my soul would leave my body? how? Will it pain? Whats next after that? Will I ever remember Myself? Will I ever be able to meet the loved ones I lost in the past? I try to pacify myself saying, we came into life all alone and we shall leave all alone too. ..shucks.. but it doesn't seem to work at all. I feel as if I'm leaving myself, abandoning myself. I feel as if someone is controlling me and my life.. watching my every single move. My parents.. what would I do without them? My friends... what if something happens to them? I used to believe in not being attached to anybody in this worl...

Shri Guru Charan Saroj Raj After cleansing the mirror of my mind with the pollen Nij mane mukure sudhar dust of holy Guru's Lotus feet. I Profess the pure, Varnao Raghuvar Vimal Jasu untainted glory of Shri Raghuvar which bestows the four- Jo dayaku phal char fold fruits of life.(Dharma, Artha, Kama and Moksha). Budhi Hin Tanu Janike Fully aware of the deficiency of my intelligence, I Sumirau Pavan Kumar concentrate my attention on Pavan Kumar and humbly Bal budhi Vidya dehu mohe ask for strength, intelligence and true knowledge to Harahu Kalesa Vikar relieve me of all blemishes, causing pain. Jai Hanuman gyan gun sagar Victory to thee, O'Hanuman! Ocean of Wisdom-All Jai Kapis tihun lok ujagar hail to you O'Kapisa! (fountain-head of power,wisdom and Shiva-Shakti) You illuminate all the three worlds (Entire cosmos) with your glory . Ram doot atulit bal dhama You are the divine...

Tried numerology today. Entered my name and the site showed up this: Soul Urge: 6 Soul Urge: A Deeper Look Into What Motivates You Love, giving it and getting it is your main concern. You are drawn to people and situations that allow you to express your ability to harmonize, heal and sympathize. Family relationships take up much of your attention as you always like to know what's going on, and you are good at resolving conflict. Beauty and the arts or decorating are also ways that you may express yourself. Personality: The Impression You Make upon the World People and animals are attracted by your maternal nurturing and affectionate appearance.They seem to be drawn to you for absolution. You emanate forgiveness, compassion and understanding. Your charming and generous personality brings you love and good luck in abundance. Many people will be attracted to you because of your idealistic and romantic nature. Others will be transformed by your example. It feels good being around you, ...