Thoughts of the Worm

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. She cooked for students & teachers to support the family. There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school one of my classmates said, "eeeee, your mom only has one eye!" I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear. I confronted her that day and said, "If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?" My mom did not respond... I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings. I wanted her out of that house, and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own. I was happy...

At times I truly feel I don't have the latent to stand up to everyone's expectations! Avin's post, "an excellent remainder" actually put me to think. Why do we forget ourselves and dance to the tune of the universe. Why is it that we desperately crave to go ahead of time and once we are there, we long to go back to our past? Though I've never understood life's concepts, I assume, the reason is all because we are humans and so we follow the norm of being unsatisfied with what we have. We dream of living a luxurious life; a life where we want happiness, a life where we can only smile. In an attempt to achieve this 'all' we drain ourselves so much to the core that we finally end up realizing we haven't lived our lives at all. Responsibilities and Expectations weigh us down and we tend to become hackneyed. We try to smile through everything. Now for a change, as they say, Life is not a Bed of Roses, let's be practical and accept the fact; Lif...