Thoughts of the Worm

This feeling is so weird. I was happy until morning when a realization gripped me, that one day, I too will fade away into fine dust. Yes, sudden and weird... I'm scared of death. I can't imagine staying away from the people I love, even for a second, and death will take away everything from me. I keep wondering....how would it feel while breathing my last moment? how would it feel when my soul would leave my body? how? Will it pain? Whats next after that? Will I ever remember Myself? Will I ever be able to meet the loved ones I lost in the past? I try to pacify myself saying, we came into life all alone and we shall leave all alone too. ..shucks.. but it doesn't seem to work at all. I feel as if I'm leaving myself, abandoning myself. I feel as if someone is controlling me and my life.. watching my every single move. My parents.. what would I do without them? My friends... what if something happens to them? I used to believe in not being attached to anybody in this worl...

I went to a party, And remembered what you said. You told me not to drink, Mum So I had a sprite instead. I felt proud of myself, The way you said I would, That I didn't drink and drive, Though some friends said I should. I made a healthy choice, And your advice to me was right, The party finally ended, And the kids drove out of sight. I got into my car, Sure to get home in one piece, I never knew what was coming, Mum Something I expected least. Now I'm lying on the pavement, And I hear the policeman say, The kid that caused this wreck was drunk, Mum, his voice seems far away. My own blood's all around me, As I try hard not to cry. I can hear the paramedic say, This girl is going to die. I'm sure the guy had no idea, While he was flying high, Because he chose to drink and drive, Now I would have to die. So why do people do it, Mum Knowing that it ruins lives? And now the pain is cutting me, Like a hundred stabbing knives. Someone should have taught him, That it's wr...