Thoughts of the Worm

It's been nearly 3 years our friendship came to an end, but believe me, I still remember those moments we spent playing pranks on others, sharing our worries and doubts, calling up each other by names and talking on the phone for hours together and ya also the 'chalk-fight' in college. But you see, 'Green-eyed' monsters are always lurking around. Scared with the thought that some people would bring an end to our friendship, I took some drastic steps which led to a lot of misunderstanding between us, to which you reacted in a shocking manner. I wanted to apologize you, but my ego didn't let me. Today, I leave everything behind and ask you to forgive me. I know I did wrong for misleading you that way But who was to know you would react that way I know I was wrong for lying that day But all I was trying to do was cheer you up in such a way So for that I apologize I wish I could take it back But mostly all I want is your forgiveness and trust I hope I didn’t change ...

Feeling really bad for what's happening around. It's for the first time, I sense  injustice. I never copy assignments like many do. I prepare notes on my own and I write them all by myself. Just like any other college, the number of xerox machines out do the originals. And you know what I get for all this work? .... I get a 7 on 15. And the people who copy get a 11 or 12 on 15. Am I jealous of them? If the word is jealous, then be it. Name it anything, but at the end of everything it's me who is affected, right? I'm not praising myself for 'self-writing' neither am I criticizing my friends for copying. I'm just agitated at the kind of result I got for all the work. Never in my life have I come across a situation like this. Just wondering what made me get a 7 and other a 12 on the same paper? See it's these things that make me go crazy. Being honest doesn't always help, isnt it?

Today is the most funniest, frustrating, swearing-all-girls day. I lost the following things: 1. Wallet which contained - 1.1 ID (previous year) 1.2 Fee Receipt (this year) 1.3 CSI I-card 1.4 Library I-card 1.5 Library Book Issue Cards (all 3) 2. My Mind What was funny? - My wallet contained not a single PENNY, because this was the Cards-wallet. Conclusion: The robbers are MORONS and such moron-giri can be done only by girls.

I'm either way to busy or purposely keeping myself preoccupied to stay away from gossips. ugh.. I really hate getting involved in 'girly-gossips'. *bangs head on the wall* Why don't they discuss things like Gadgets... the new amazing Apple IPod Nano or the Nintendo Wii - the superb gaming device with motion sensitive game play and Wifi.... Why do they talk about 'the-girl-on-the-first-bench' or 'the-girl-who-got-married' or 'how-that-girl-bunked-class-to-roam-with-her-boyfriend'? What have I got to do with them?????? See, now you know why I developed goosebumps when I got sndt!?

Is it the whole world or just me who's getting this horrible feeling of being crushed under tests, assignments and... gossips! oh well, has to be only me. Things have become so hectic, the day seems to have less than 24 hours and my fingers seem to have lost the energy and my body seems to have lost the appetite. What am I saying? Aint I sounding like a "seriously-mentally ill-girly-haunted-female"?? Well yes, I am atleast half of the above... 'girly-haunted-female' not 'seriously-mentally ill' :P I hate Maths(Alegbra/Geometry/ and eveyrthing that has this)..... I've never understood why would a student have to mug-up formulaes? Understanding the derivation is fine. But mugging up formulaes? I mean that is weird. Many might not find it weird cuz they are habituated to this mugging things.... I believe people responsible for such a bad situation are teachers. I've observed that when answers are a ditto copy of the books, they are given more marks. B...

*goosebumps* *goosebumps* admission in SNDT! *bangs head for including this name as the second college in the cap forms!* Dealing with girls for the second time after attending a convent school is giving me solid nightmares, which I'm sure is going to haunt me even during the day - daymares! But as they say, you 've to lose something in order to gain something, I've got the branch I aspired for - IT *sounds heaven to my ears* Wishing myself luck for the dreaded future :P heehee